Monday, March 31, 2008

An Accident

I rear-ended a car today. Actually two cars. I was very glad no one was hurt, though the other drivers seemed unsure of whether their neck/back was injured.

Don't know why I didn't stop in time. I'm still trying to figure it out.

It was raining. Had been for a while. Maybe the window was foggy. It was certainly foggy when I was driving back from the accident an hour afterwards.

I thought that I had I heard my phone ring. I mentioned this to the other drivers, that "my phone rang" while explaining what happened. But by the time the police officer arrived, my words had transformed in their minds and they were wondering if I was talking on the phone at the time of the accident.

While my vehicle and driver license info was being processed, I checked my phone's call history and there was no incoming/missed call. Maybe it was the radio or it was the sound of collision or maybe it was my imagination. It wouldn't have mattered anyway as that was precisely the moment my car made contact with the first car. I explained this to the police officer at the scene, but I wonder if I cleared it up properly as all I wanted at the time was to go home.

Well, hope it all works out. Gotta sleep. Gotta go to work tomorrow so I can pay for my insurance premium which I'm sure will rise due to this.

Wednesday, March 26, 2008

HL7 Sucks Dirt

HL7 sucks. Two days of "training" that was hardly better than reading the HL7 specification. Plus two days to travel to Marquette and back. All I got was a headache and deep hatred for all things HL7.

Ugly hack by incompetent fools. I'll make programs that work with non-XML HL7 when hell freezes over.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Rational Living

Throw away all ideals.
Stop listening to people who claim to know.
No one knows.
Name someone who knows.
Same name belongs to ignorance.
Make your own observations.
Draw your own conclusions.
There is no right or wrong.
There is only you and reality you observe.

Some cling onto thoughts that do not match reality. Instead of trying to fit ideas to observations, they make selective observations and interpret them in convoluted and far-fetched ways to fit their ideas. Such individuals are despicable and untrustworthy. But do not insult them as it will only make them yet more irrational. Ignore them and be on your way. Try to correct them if you must, but don't waste all your life on them. They should live their lives as they will. And so should you.

The world is not black and white. Not even a spectrum of colors will fit reality of a grain of sand. Do not attempt to simplify reality for the sake of your ideas. Change your ideas so that they may better fit your observations. There is no right and wrong. There is only degree of consistency with reality.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Do Talk to Strangers

Met someone new today. It's rare that I talk so much with someone without being introduced. She was pleasant and interesting company.

I didn't want to bring up my age. She asked but I refused to answer. It'd have diverted the conversation and made me (her?) feel awkward.

It'd be nice to meet her again but I wonder if it'd feel as natural as it did today.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

An Old Acquaintance

I regret taking my leave so soon,
Old acquaintance of mine.
I've always held you at an arm's length.
I've always been awkward with you.
There was no helping it.
I was myself.
And you, a person.
Though it's been so long,
I have not changed.
And you remain human.
I regret taking my leave so soon.
I regret exchanging such few, trivial words.
If only I were a different person.
Or you, a Bengal tiger.

Monday, March 10, 2008


Stranger, where are you going?

I slow down so our paths may cross.

Stranger, where are you going?

You cannot hear this question in my eyes.

You walk briskly in the snow,

Firmly staring on, to a destination unknown.

Sunday, March 9, 2008


The only thing I'm good at seems to be not doing.

Not drinking. Not smoking. Not chasing tail. Not talking. Not realizing my dreams. Do I even dream?

So very good at demonstrating to myself there is no reason to do anything, no reason to change.

Why bother? What's the point? I can never answer these questions.

I waste away in a sea of insignificance. No person, thing, or thought stays for long here.

One day I'll look back upon my life and see a gigantic nothingness. I dread that day.

Or will I change before that day and eek out a life worth remembering?

Then again... why bother? Why is this important - to live such a life? It's not. I would have to make it important to myself. There is no objective value system that will impart wisdom. Because there is no such thing as wisdom. I hate all things subjective.

I embrace my inhibitor, my prison guard, myself. Objective reality - you are my reality.

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Feeling Sore

Started working out with a friend from work.

My arms are sore from first day of workout. Did shoulders and triceps the second day. Did legs today. I need to write down the routine and memorize it so I can do it by myself.

I can't put on my jacket right and I'm clumsy with utensils during meals, but the pain feels good somehow.

Saturday, March 1, 2008


As many persons have found, Juno's a fun movie. I was a little late to confirm this. But better late than never.

Also, it has inspired me to find a high school girl to impregnate. If the movie taught me anything, it's that pregnant high school girls are cool. And that teenage pregnancies bring excitement and intrigue to boring ordinary lives.

I expect US population will grow rapidly in the next few years as teens give birth to the Juno generation.